It's amazing...

Expecting a child, is the most thrilling and terrifying experience, I think a woman could ever encounter. 
I know that when I was expecting both my girls, I was a nervous wreck. Thankfully, when I found out I was expecting Sadie I was already 3 months along.  I didn't have a chance to worry if I would make it thru the first 3 months. Most women know that those first months are very critical for the fetus.  When I found out I was expecting Olivia, I found out when I was 6 weeks along.  So, not only was I feeling like I was going to be pregnant forever,  I had the first 3 months to worry about.  And did I worry... I made sure I did everything right.  I ate right, drank nothing but water, took my vitamin, got plenty of rest.  But, the worst thing you can do when your pregnant is read things on the internet.  I would read all sorts of things, and then start freaking out.  Finally, my doctor said "Liana, if you don't stop getting on the internet, I'm going to take your phone and computer away."  I did what I was told, and I was able to enjoy my pregnancy.  Well, as much as one who is expecting a child can.  Because there is the uncontrolable hunger, then the urge to throw it all up, swollen feet, heartburn, the inability to get comfortable no matter how hard you try. For months Adrian and I were divided in our bed because of all my extra pillows. 5 to be exact.  Then something amazing happens around 5 1/2 months, you feel the first movement of that precious life growing inside of you.  Sadie was very active throughout the day, and chilled out at night.  Olivia on the other hand, was extremely active at night.  It was as if she knew I was trying to sleep.  There was kicks to the ribs, and somersaults.  It's an amazing feeling... It's even cooler to watch.  Sadie actually kicked a remote off my belly one afternoon.  Olivia just liked to roll, and my whole stomach would move from side to side.  If you have ever been pregnant, you know that your unborn child likes to make a fool of you.  Everytime, I would tell someone to look at my belly, or feel the kick, she would stop.
The day I gave birth to my girls, were completely different from eachother.  I went into labor with Sadie at 2:30 in the morning.  I knew I wanted to have an epidural for the pain. I'm sorry, but there was no way I would have been able to do it any other way.  I know, I know, women were doing it centuries before, with no pain medication, and in their beds at home. But this is the 21st century and I'm just a wimp... lol.  I labored for 12 hours with no pain, and 3 pushes to bring my precious daughter into the world. Okay, I am a huge believer now, of the saying, "no 2 pregnancies or deliveries are alike."  Only because I have experienced it myself.  I chose to be induced with Olivia, I went into the hospital at midnite the night before.  Was given medication, and began the wait.  I also decided to see how far I could go without pain medication.... 3 hours, that was the max. I was actually very proud of myself for holding out that long.  When I finally asked for my epidural,  they decided to mix it up on me. I had a 1/2 epidural, 1/2 spinal tap. It was supposed to be better for after birth, so I could get up sooner.  Well, let me tell you, if and when I ever have another child, I don't want any of this half and half stuff.  I was expecting no pain or discomfort, afterall it was that way with Sadie. Ha! I had no such luck with Olivia.  I felt everything, the contractions, the pressure, and Olivia, when she made it in to this world.  All after an hour of pushing, no 3 pushes this time.  I guess in a way, I'm glad I got to experience it both ways.  Pain, and no pain. 
Being pregnant and giving birth to my beautiful daughters, is the most meaningful thing I've ever done in my life.  I wouldn't trade either experience for anything.


Til my fingers dance again... love & happiness....

I do, and I will....

If your a mom and a wife your going to relate to this post. If your not, and hope to be, I hope you can still enjoy...

In my opinion, moms and wives have one of the most demanding jobs ever.  You are on call 24/7, your a maid, cook, chauffeur, nurse. Your overworked and underpaid.   I'll admit there are times when I want to lock myself in the bathroom, and hide, just for some time to myself. So, mornings are when I take the time to be selfish, and think of myself for just a little bit.  I wake up an hour before anyone else, make myself a cup of coffee, and sit quietly for a good 20 minutes.  I take this opportunity to reflect, to pray and to prepare myself for the day.  The rest of the hour is spent making hubby's lunch, packing the diaper bag, and setting out Sadie's clothes.  When that hour ends, the chaos begins... Sadie and hubby are not morning people, so it takes them forever to get up and going.  Olivia wakes up hungry, so her cereal and juice better be ready. Getting out the door is not a easy task... Did I grab my purse, diaper bag, and anything Sadie may need?? Sure hope so.. lol.  Once Olivia gets dropped off at Grandma's, and Sadie gets dropped off at school, it's off to work I go.  I put in my time at the office and then before I know it, it's time to pick up kids again.. I cook dinner everynite and that is always a challenge.  It's hard to come up with different things to make.  Once I get that figured out, then I can vacuum, wash clothes, play with the kids, pay bills. I anxiously await the hubby coming home, so I can have some adult conversation.  Although, if you know my husband, you know he isn't very talkative, but having him home makes my family of 4 complete. We eat dinner, I clean up the kitchen, put kids in the bath, and then into bed,  I take a bath, sit with the hubby and watch a little tv.  By now, I'm exhausted and can't keep my eyes open, so it's off to bed I go... And do it all again the next day... Being a mom and wife is hard, it's not about you anymore, and it probably won't be for a very long time.  All in all, it is the most rewarding job I have ever had. Especially when Sadie says, " Your the best mom ever."  If your a mom, you know how much those words can melt your heart.  Let's just hope she still feels that way in 10 years...lol.

No one can ever prepare you for motherhood, or being a wife.  You learn as you go,  you make a routine, and you figure it out day by day... Some days you won't stop smiling, other days you'll just want to cry.
But the one thing I have learned is that I can't imagine my life without my husband and kids, and they couldn't survive without me..hehe, just kidding...

I love my life, and am truly blessed.  I hope & pray my readers have felt this, or one day will...


Til my fingers dance again..... love & happiness <3

Say Cheese :)

When Sadie was a baby, we didn't have very many professional pictures taken of her.  Don't get me wrong, I wanted to be one of those mom's who had pictures taken at 3 months, 6, 9 & 12 months, and then every year after.  Financially it just wasn't something we were capable of at the time... Now, we have the ability to be a little bit more frivolous, but by no means are we.  So... I decided to get cute little outfits for the girls, and spend the money to have some professional pictures taken. That was, until we planned a trip to Vegas for my birthday in July.  Now, I'm on this big no unnecessary spending kick. Which obviously means no professional pictures... :( Ok, now I enjoy writing, and I've always thought I'm good at it, but I also enjoy photography.  I don't know the fancy terms,  I don't have a $500 camera, I've never taken a class, I know the lighting should be good, and you need to have patience to get the perfect shot. So by no means am I a professional, I wouldn't even classify myself as a amateur.  That did not stop me from dressing the girls up in their cute outfits, and finding the perfect back drop, I was very determined... Well remember I said you need patience? That is a understatement when you trying to photograph a 4 month old. If she wasn't crying, she had her fingers in her mouth or wouldn't look at the camera.  And don't get me started on the 5 year old, she was just as difficult.  Overall, I got some really cute pictures, that I will be able to print up and send out to family and friends for a lot less money.  Today I had fun playing photographer, it let me try something new and different for not a lot money.. My hubby should be proud of me, I saved him some money...lol.
Here our a few shots that I got today, I don't want to reveal them all, because I know I have at least 1 follower who will be getting the finished product.  So enjoy friends!!

Til my fingers dance again.... love & happiness

Sugar & Spice, and all things Nice........

When I would think about having children,  I stressed myself out just thinking about having daughters. Afterall, I am a daughter and I know what I put my parents through.  I wasn't horrible, but I thought about boys, and being popular. I woke up every morning and took forever to decide what to wear, I worried about what other girls would think about me, high school could be a battlefield for a teenage girl.  You made your friends fast, and prayed it stayed that way..
So I knew if I had daughters I was going to have to be on my game.  I wanted to make it easier for them, then it was for me.  I know I can't walk with them and hold their hands forever, but maybe, just maybe they will hear my voice in their head, and feel reassured that it doesn't need to be so complicated.

Every now and then, I think of Sadie and Olivia as teenagers (even though it depresses me and makes me feel old), and this is what I picture....
My girls will be beautiful, smart and athletic. They will have a lot of friends and like a few boys.  Adrian and I's marriage will be tested to the end, because we will not see eye to eye, on the things we think they should and should not be doing.  Every one knows that Daddy's do not like to see their little girls grow up.  Dates will be almost impossible to get Adrian to say yes to, and his relationship with his daughters will constantly be on a roller coaster.  It's going to be an interesting ride, I don't think any parent can ever truly be prepared.  You can read all the books, and talk to all your friends for advice, but no 2 daughters are the same,  even within your own daughters. You might have a wild one & a calm one.  I still have a while before my girls start to show who they are going to be.  I just hope I'm going to be up for what's coming my way.....

Til my fingers dance again....


 

I've been a busy Mommy.....

Hi All!

It's been brought to my attention that I haven't kept up with my blog.  It was actually quite flattering that I have someone who is following me, and calling me on the fact that I'm slacking.... Well I'm not really slacking, I've just been extremely busy... So I guess I owe y'all a update of the last two weeks.. Enjoy :)

For Christmas this year, my parents gave me a gift certificate to Woodhouse Day Spa in Corpus.  I had been waiting to be able to use this for 3 months.  Afterall, I think I was so deserving of this day of relaxation. I mean I did work a full tax season, carry a baby for nine months, work a full tax season again, and all with little to no sleep.  So the day got booked and I got to go with some amazing women from work.  We had our day planned for no kids, no husbands and total bliss.  We left Beeville at 7:30 in the morning, and made the what seemed forever trip to Corpus. When we arrived at the spa, I must say just walking thru the door relaxed me.  We were taken back to the locker room, so we could change in to comfy robes and sandals that felt good at first, and then actually started to hurt my feet...lol.  After we changed we were sent to what was called the "quiet room", I actually had butterflies in my tummy.  We were called back and they started with the package we had put together.  50 minute full body massage, facial and a pedicure.  The massage was just what my tired and aching body needed, I could have fallen asleep right there on the table, but I was afraid I might snore...hehe. Ok, I had no idea what to expect with a facial. My whole idea of it, was just what I had seen in movies, you know sitting around with cucumbers over my eyes, but oh was I wrong! It was the most amazing experience ever, (shhh don't tell, but it was better than the massage), I know that must sound crazy, and I am actually having difficulties putting it in to words. You'll just have to trust me.  We finished it up with a pedicure, which I must say that after 2 weeks still looks pretty awesome.  Overall, it was just the kind of day this tired mommy needed. We ate lunch at Cheddar's and did a little shopping, and I enjoyed the time away. My friends are amazing women, and I am so blessed to have them in my life, and I loved spending the day with them.  In the end, I was anxious to get home to my girls.  I did feel a little guilty leaving them all day....

Olivia had a follow up doctor's appointment last Thursday.  She was over her bronchitis, and was finally able to get her 2 month old shots, a little late but nevertheless.  As every mommy knows, it's so hard on the heart to see your little one get poked, but she was a trooper. She weighed 13 pounds, 5 ounces and the doctor said she is looking great.

Ok, now this next part is really depressing, (ok I'm being a little dramatic..lol).  Sadie took her cap and gown pictures on Monday.  Graduation day from Pre-K is fastly approaching, where did the time go?  I'm going to be a mommy to a kindergardner. :(  How is it possible that I can still so freshly remember my first day of kinder, and now my baby is going?  All I know is, on graduation day, I better make sure I have plenty of tissues.. ;(

Even though I've missed 2 weeks of writing, as you can tell not much has been happening. Work is consuming most of my time right now...but with only 3 days left of tax season, (which I'm really excited about), my writing should pick up more.  My girls are healthy and happy, and my husband is awesome....
Everything is just the way it should be.

Goodnite friends, til my fingers dance again, be happy :)